Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Are you surprised that I’m confused again, God?
What is it you’re doing with my life?
What is it you’re wanting from me?

I can’t see.
I can't even see what's right in front of me some days.
And even when I do see what's right before my eyes,
I fail to discern sometimes,
Or interpret incorrectly.
I feel like a fool.

I feel.
But vision’s thwarted by my thoughts.
I know the path’s not changing.
It’s my sight that wavers.
Oh, how tears can blur my view of something steadfast.

Catch them.
Catch me.

I need You so much.
I love You so much.
I know you know it;
You don’t forget that kind of thing.
And even if You did, I’m telling You again.

I know you know how much I want You.
Help me show it.
Oh God, help me show it.

I lack eloquence.
But how much eloquence is really needed
For me to remind you that I want to be Yours?

I get tired of confusion,
But not of You.
One day at a time You show me more..

Oh, the theme is old…
Words repeated, thoughts recurring.
One hazy viewpoint succeeded by another.

For life consists of more than just one question.
I don't know what I'd do if You weren't my Forever Answer.I don't know what I'd do without You.

I know confusion doesn’t last forever.
But You do.
A theme may grow tiresome when it's turned to prose.
But adoration is never out-dated.
Uphold me, God, uphold me.

3 comments:

me ;) said...

I was at Stephanie Olson's site.. and saw your comment... recognized the profile pic and name.. and linked over. ;)

It would be safe to say this post had me in tears.

:hugs:

I love you... and I praise God that He will give you what's the very best. I praise Him for His unselfishness... when my feelings want to run away with my decisions. For His goodness... when I'm tired of being good. His worthiness.. when I don't *feel* like praising Him. Oh, the bliss of knowing that *He knows all*.

Be still my soul... the Lord is on thy side. Bear patiently thy cross of grief and pain.

Or maybe the cross is confusion and wander. It doesn't really matter. ;)

Sorry for the long comment!

Rebekah said...

Like I could ever mind you stumbling upon it? Please! ;)

Nicholas said...

What a fantastic post! Thanks for the comment... God Bless you!